Body Image Struggles and Eating Disorders

( Guest Body Image and Eating Disorders Blog By Melissa Dejanude )

One Girl's Personal Struggle With Eating Disorders and Body Image:

Body Image and Eating Disorders- I've always been self-conscious about my body. Growing up, I had grown eating disorders - both anorexia and bulimia. The symptoms of these illnesses began back when I was a teenager. I consider I was in either eighth or ninth grade at the time. I was also involved in the sport of competitive gymnastics too, which really did nothing but supply fuel for the eating disorders.

I had a really realistic goal of going to the Olympics and really competed against Marylou Retton back in the 1980's. Participation in this kind of sport allows you to always obsessed about how you look. What you consider is an obsession you wake up with every morning. Needless to say, I ended up developing a distorted body image of myself and other individuals also. The very idea of becoming fat or unpleasant looking was simply not acceptable in my own eyes.

My father was also a violent alcoholic while I was growing up as well. He used to scare me half to death just about every day of my life and was always telling me how worthless and stupid I was. This, of course, also bring about the self esteem issues. My self confidence went right out the window.

Body Image And Eating Disorders

When I went to school, I used to try and cover my upper body up with a big jumper. I'd wear double shirts to try to hide my midsection as I believed I was absolutely fat and disgusting. I did not want anyone to see any part of me let alone let anyone to see me nude.

In physical education class, I refused to change my clothing in front of the other ladies. I 'd hide in the bathroom to get out of having to take a shower and be nude in front of anyone as I didn't feel comfortable doing this in any manner whatsoever.

as soon as http://www.howard.edu/asp/linkcounter/resourcesondemand.asp?url=http://videonudism.com looked at myself in the mirror, all I could see was places in need of improvement. After reaching the age of 18, I unexpectedly had a boyfriend somehow, but that ended quickly since there were sexual problems in my component.

After I look back at it all now and look at images from back then of myself or others, I cannot believe how thin I looked. My mind was really messed up back then. No doubt about it.

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